Just a gentle whisper,
Told me that you're gone.
Leaving only memories,
Where did we go wrong?
I couldn't find the words then,
So let me say them now.
I'm still in love with you.
Tell me that you love me
Tell me that you care
Tell me that you need me
And I'll be there
I'll be there waiting
I will always love you
I will always stay true
There's no one who loves you like i do
Come to me now
I will never leave you
I will stay here with you
Through the good and bad I will stand true
Hold me closer
Our love is forever
Holding us together
Nothing in this world can stop us now
Love has found
Love has found
A way
I'm in love
I'm so in love
I'm in love
Yes I'm in love
I'm so in love
With you
After what has happened recently, I cant help but wonder why after all this while I still love him. In a way, if being posessive means being mean, then I guess it is. Thats a thing I need to control in myself...
Have you ever felt your heart beating fast just seeing the one you love online? Just seeing him being online can just made my heart beat fast. Never mind about his nick, I just want to him to be safe. At least I know hez alive. Why eh? I wonder what will happen if he really calls. Will my heart skip a beat? I miss hearing his voice, his words of wisdom, his touch of love, his everything but now, I have to control this feeling of mine. I will not call him unless he asked me to. Thatz a promise I made to myself. No doubt I will feel pain, cry a thousand nites but what to do, im afraid he will not talk to me like normal. What if, suddenly another person picked up the phone? What if, he just put down the phone knowing its me?
A friend once told me, you have to be strong. Its no use if its just an empty dustbin. In fact, all my friends knew that I love him a lot and I will not listen to my mind and just call him if I cant take the pain of missing him. I doubt he will ask me again..I caused him too much trouble already. Too much that I think it has taken a toil on him. I have to suffer in order to give him happiness. It's great to know he moves on..as for me, I am still picking up from crying every nite. Sometimes, recollections of all the memories will just fly by and I will cry. Alwayz happen as I am about to sleep. I try not to think of it but culdnt help myself. If only I have some control over my feelings, then I think I will not cry.
They say if you dont feel pain, its not called love. I feel the pinch of pain just that nobody sees it. If you see my face in the street, you will not see the sadness in it. I am surrendering to fate now. Whatever you see now may or may not be the same me anymore. I just hope he knows that I still love him a lot and that whatever that happens has been the best days of my life at the age of 19.
Love, HaH! Its the most beautiful thing when everything goes well. Suddenly, it crumbles and thats when you see the other side of love. Remember the time that I said we have to take care of it so that you wont get to see the other side? I failed to take care of it. Chances are given and I did not take care of it. Wellz, no point crying over spilled milk. I just hope I could just stop all the memories from flying in so that I have a peaceful nite sleep.
Look up,
Look down,
Life is
But a mixture of both
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Soul: Sharifah Nurulhuda
Age:20
First Cry: 240685
Schools: South View Pri, Dunearn Sec, Singapore Poly
Hometown: Teck Whye Lane
Hangouts: Causeway Point, Bugis, Jurong Point, Orchard, Esplanade
[[ The Wishlist ]]
Get better grades this year
Get a driving licence at the shortest possible time
Learn to love myself more
Be more confident of myself
Try to live to the fullest
Be a renowned COMPOSER one day
To help out with my family to have an easy life in future
To rely on myself instead of others