Just a gentle whisper,
Told me that you're gone.
Leaving only memories,
Where did we go wrong?
I couldn't find the words then,
So let me say them now.
I'm still in love with you.
Tell me that you love me
Tell me that you care
Tell me that you need me
And I'll be there
I'll be there waiting
I will always love you
I will always stay true
There's no one who loves you like i do
Come to me now
I will never leave you
I will stay here with you
Through the good and bad I will stand true
Hold me closer
Our love is forever
Holding us together
Nothing in this world can stop us now
Love has found
Love has found
A way
I'm in love
I'm so in love
I'm in love
Yes I'm in love
I'm so in love
With you
Sometimes I just dont understands my mum. Why must she controls me when I am already 20? I ask for my atm card and there she is comparing me with my..... I mean goodness. I am so different from that particular person. I need my atm card so that I can spend it for my FYP and to spend it on a blouse which I really need for my test interview. There she is saying things like I am under peer pressure, will spend the money like water and so on. Come on! I know how to spend the money. I am 20 but the way she treat me, is like I am 10 years old. Gosh! I wonder when will she let go of me. I want to be free but truth to be told, I can be free until I am what, working? Even then, I wonder....Haiz..When will she be open minded. She said my going to be first pay of $1000++ is not gonna be enough. Gosh! I know its not enough but for a first pay, its considered quite high. The pay is going to rise up, aint it? Its not going to be stagnant at $1000++ forever. Sometimes, my mum is getting unpredictable.
She gets mad at me for like teeeny, meeny, whynee things. Like when I want to sweep the floor, she would ask me to sweep it with the other broom instead of the one I am using. When I want to use a blender to blend in the chillies and so on, she would ask me to blend it using another blender. Gosh! I know what I am doing yet, there she is getting mad at me over these stuffs. Then when I go on using it, she will scold me. Its like as if I have to listen to her every word.
Sometimes I really,really, REALLY dont understand why must she gets mad at this stupid stuff. When I rebuked back, she said I am very rude. Come on la, itz so small. Itz not like a big thing like smoking or drinking. And wearing fitting clothes to her, itz tight and she will makes comment about that. Like why show off the body to the world. Haiz..Why cant I be like them? Haiz... I feel as if I am dependent on my mum cuz she NEVER lets me to be Independent. Why cant she gives me the trust that I can take care of my money? WHY???? Why cant she trust me that I can be responsible for my own actions? WHY??? WHY IS SHE TREATING ME LIKE A KID!!!!!
My other friends are allowed or even encouraged to have boyfriends. Unfortunately, I am not allowed. Yes, the other time, I got hitched, I cannot tell my mum that I have problems like you guys did. I have to act as if I am still single and that I have no problems. Still remember how one of my friends were amazed that I can hide those hurts when I just, just quarrelled with my ex a while before my parents were back. I cannot tell my mum cuz she will never understand how I feel. I did try to make her understand only to hear her nagging and shouting. Thats not what I WANT! I want her to be a little more open. Just a little wont hurt right? Shez just so conservative. Haiz...when will I be free as a bird? When I am married? I dont know. I just dont know.....
Not every adults are right. But all she knows is I am ALWAYS wrong and she is ALWAYS right! Haiz...sometimes itz getting unpredictable..When was the last time this happen? When I was in secondary school. FOR ONCE, FOR ONCE, I thought when I am in poly, she would not scold me over such stuff. But, NOPEZ, her menopause period is back! Gosh! I wonder when will this unpredictable life will ends!
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Soul: Sharifah Nurulhuda
Age:20
First Cry: 240685
Schools: South View Pri, Dunearn Sec, Singapore Poly
Hometown: Teck Whye Lane
Hangouts: Causeway Point, Bugis, Jurong Point, Orchard, Esplanade
[[ The Wishlist ]]
Get better grades this year
Get a driving licence at the shortest possible time
Learn to love myself more
Be more confident of myself
Try to live to the fullest
Be a renowned COMPOSER one day
To help out with my family to have an easy life in future
To rely on myself instead of others