Living Freely

7/24/2005

Today...the day started off as fine.......Let me begin.....

Early in the morning, I had Nurhayat Orientation. Hmm...the calling of freshies were done and of the 11 people who said that wanted to come, only 9 people managed...Haiz..But still the games must go on! 4 girls and 5 boys...i played with them...wokayz bery enthusiastic, but i think,if there were more freshies like in KEM PANGLIMA, it would be a great one. Never mind, we should be happy with whatever we have...Any updates, check out the Nurhayat Blog which is in malay, sorry peepz..it was done by our fabulous Hisham!!!! Thanx hisham for doing my job!

After Nurhayat Orientation, I met my best friend, Norliana to shop for her stuff and my stuff. First off, we went to Bugis Village. Hmm, so many people walking but I have to make do with whatever energy I have. I was freaking tired and nauseous. I wonder why but I keep on with the spirit of going on. I initially wanted to buy myself a drink but knowing that I have enough money to buy a thumb drive, I shudder the idea of buying one. After she had bought her stuff, we walked our way to Sim Lim Square.

The walk is not that far from bugis and I thought it is very far. I should have explored Singapore often. Yupz, there was a lot of electronics shop here. Fuh!! From one shop to the other, and yet I cant find a thumb drive which costs $40 for 256MGB...then, as i was about to give up, I bought myself one. Its super duper small that I am scared i might lost that thumb drive. Fuh! It was just a small chip and not like the one that my frens have. According to the uncle, he said, this thumb drive doesnt have a hard cover unlike the $50(the one like my frens)...I have to make do with it..When I am working, i would like to buy the 2gigabyte thumbdrive. Its to save all my works....

After bugis, we head straight to Boat Quay to pass Rafiz his friend's cert, abdur rahman. Keep your eyes intact mr! He was looking my best friend like he wanted to eat her. I just wanted to say it to him but since it was for a short while, I just keep quiet. Hmm...he was there to watch the fireworks of the national day. Looking at his friends and all the activities at the boat quay, Liana asked me to go home(so not) in front of him. Nevertheless, we actually walked our way to the Esplanade only to find out that there was a lot of barriers. So we had to make do with the merlion! Fuh!! The fireworks was superb! For the couples, they sit by the riverside...It must be very romantic, huh? Haiz..if only I could have that kind of romanticness. But itz all in my mind..In my mind when the fireworks blasted into the air was somebody did a perfect romantic gesture would be fireworks saying that ABAB Loves Sharifah Nurulhuda!! Fuh, another fantasy of mine never gonna happen. Haiz...or perhaps...Nah..it aint gonna happen..All fantasies are just meant to be fantasies never gonna happen..

On our way home, we talked a lot about our friends back in our current school and dunearn. Fuh, somehow, I missed my dunearn days where all the friends there dont backstabbed each other. Haiz..anyways, met this Gelora guy also acting in Cinta Bollywood, Rafi Khan..Hmm, looks like me Brother-in Law...ahakz..Wokayz la..Not so interested in him..

At nite, hmm...went chatting and behold and behold....made another mistake. A mistake which will makes me vulnerable to any circumstances but im willing to face the music. I listen to what my heart wanted to say. Its gonna happen anytime and at any place..just watched out...read his blog and wow! It hurts me a lot. Sometimes, love is beautiful, Sometimes, it is pain..whatever it is...Love is a combination of both. Just look at the positive side, aint it? Love, what is love? Again, I failed in interpreting wats love...Soon to be, soon....whatever I said in the previous blog will come true...Yeah, I aint kidding you...Its just that the stress is not the max yet. Going to be but not to be...

Still to remember my sec 5 days when I cant take the stress...Friends to note, this is not the first time....again, I dont have the courage to do it..Soon, Soon, to be, I will have the courage....Haiz...

A cry of plead....Help me, somebody? Stress is the word that I am facing rite now..Stress over studies, stress over broken relationship(yeah, haven gotten over it yet, thats why I am still living in fantasy land), stress over choosing to be a part of either malaysia or singapore,stress about friendship, stress about not getting the job done....Haiz....whatever it is..I will persevere and make do with the resources around me to overcome the stress...

3rd Year...............6 more months to go!!!!!!!! Im off to workland..Wonder what kind of stress will I be facing then......Speaking of which, I just realised something the other time I went out with him, I will be supporting my parents at quite an early age of 21....Yupz, I cant wait to support both sides of my parents...Eh...yeah hor..this could be a determination to help me study better...To support both sides of my parents....

Looking at the future..Whatever happens will happen...If it is meant to be yours, it will be in the end....

*[[Giving Myself a Chance]]*
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