4/30/2005
Hey peepz!!! Long time no see yeah...Hmm..Juz a reminder to u peepz yeah..I am goin to Sabah and New Zealand for 10 days..maybe extend cuz I'll be living with my sis in sabah and New Zealand is just a holiday. Pray hard that i come back safely. I hope nuthing will happen to me cuz I have a lot of unsettled things back in Singapore..RYTE GUYZ??? So anything, contact me at my old number..the one with 9139.... Fill in the blankz urself. Ahakz :P Cannot reveal here..
Ahuh...today..started off as STRESSFUL cuz I was so scared of the lightings for the fiesta femina. In the end, IT WAS AN EXPERIENCE I WOULD NEVER FORGET!!! The show to those who missed it, especially the guyz, is SUPER GREAT!!! Man! Luckily im not the actresses, cuz I think I can never act as well as THEY DID! You guyz are the best! The artistik dance, fuyoo!!!!!!!!! POWER!!! Man!! Suhaila did a GREAT job choreographing the dance. The dance is like implementing of what is happening in the scene especially the rape scene. The show was BOLD! Really, with Samantha...CUTE!!! A funny character in the show..I cant help but laugh at the character. U did a GREAT job faseha in bringing out the Character!!!! Not only faseha, but also the whole CAST!!! This thing is not a ONE-MAN SHOW but a whole team show. Without their stresnous practices days and nites prior to the event, this would not be a SUCCESS!!!! You are the best!!!!!
Hmm...what shud i write here..I also dunnoe..wokayz ar...back to basics...Actually, i have been waiting at least a message or call from this guy. I really do not know. Perhapz, hez trying to do something but what the heck, why must i make the first move? Ill see how la..Perhapz I will make the first move cuz i think even if i did which i already did, he like heck care liddat. So, i think itz time for me to move on even though my heart is bleeding to the max. I have been wanting to let this out since dunnoe when but i decided today will be the day cuz I made a promise to myself something which you guyz shouldnt know about. But yeah, I will still wait for my love of my life to come. I believe that love should have the connection between two people and they should have the chemistry. So, if you think the promise is to stop being in love, YOU ARE SO WRONG! I shall wait for LOVE to come to me...it will come when you least expected it. Its super TRUE!!!!
P.S.: Hey Mr, if u read this mail and know that itz referring to you, please tag me..u need not say itz you though...Ahakz...Friends do not wait for the other to tell them what to do...
|11:18 PM|
4/27/2005
Everyone in this life have a mission. Each mission is different. That makes up the world today. Some people have achieve greater heights in their mission which is why they made it to heaven. While some, they failed in their mission and dies in an unexpected way.
The main mission for everyone is to go to heaven. For muslims, they know what I mean. Therez another mission for us. That mission has been decided for us long before we were born. My mission is to help out my family. That is the reason why I am brought to Singapore and why I was being adopted by my own family. Thatz why I have to be strong to face the challenges of life. The year has been a turmoil for me this year...or shud i say..2004..not 2005. I found out the meaning of love and pain when the heart is broken. Perhapz he was not meant for me or perhapz he was meant for me but because of what we did, HE had to separate us. It is to prevent us to create more sins to ourselves and destroy the mission that was given to us. I am thankful to HIM and his mum.
Perhapz, perhapz if the mission has been accomplished and the both of us still have not find our perfect partner..perhapz we could be together...But thats the future. We do not know what HE has in store for us in the future. Perhapz, HE has better candidate for us in the future. I do not know for I had made a promise to myself that I will go with the flow and to live in the present. I have set goals for myself for the future. This is to keep myself motivated for the day to come in the future.
Haiz...I am keeping myself motivated each day so as not to divulge myself in sadness. The damage has been done though. I still cant find the appetite to eat and the ability to sleep properly. Haiz...still keeping the day stronger..perhapz if i come back from my holidays, i might be able to eat like normal and sleep properly
Hoping that one day, I will be stronger to face this challenges that have been set for me. God knows it all, HE will give u challenges that you can handle. HE will not gives you challenges you cannot handle. So alwayz be thankful....HE is all merciful...
|8:15 PM|
4/23/2005
Today started off as mendak aka BORING... I din wake up..due to sleep late again...but im gonnna make sure tomorrow i wake up and start my butt going running or REGRET later...
Then...went to Nurhayat Meeting...started off unofficially and end also UNOFFICIALLY.... Hmm...yessa!! Im under Publication again aka in-charge of PRINTING...WHOOO HOOO!!!!!!!!LURVE YA ALL!!! Now, i have to tell them not to gimme any posts in the AGM NEXT YEAR..Izzit possible, Alya??? Possible ryte! Giving u the candidates juz now unofficially...hope to come out with more names...ahakz!!!
After the meeting, went eating at Jurong Point. Aiyoh, i cant decide what to eat..Walk around the banquet 3 times and yet I cant solve what to eat...End up call my mum what she wants to eat. She said she wanted to eat Popiah and Carrot Cake...Den i bought her the food and I circled one more time. After considering my budget and the amount of food i can take, i decided to take kebab. While i was eating with alya and liyana, there were 4 cute, CUTE guys sitting beside us. Liyana and I was so engulfed by their cuteness, Alya said whatz so cute about them. Alamakz...shez been smitten by the guy in her heart that she was blinded of the cute guyz out there...Haiz...Any guy who is her boyfriend or husband are very, VERY lucky!!! Shez very faithful to only ONE GUY! But looking at cute guyz does not mean we like them yeah..So to all guyz who thinks it is so...it is SO NOT!
Then at nite...watch the Muzika Extravaganza...Hmm..wonder why SLY and Malaysion Idol finalists are not involved in it. But the show is SUPER GREAT! The way it start till the way it end...it was a BANG!!! Fuyoo!! POWER! U peeps shud watch it! I think there will be a REPEAT telecast..It alwayz have...Yupz...they do only time will tell when they will broadcasts it on tv...
Then..i went to my blogging for what happens today...Ahakz....Hmm...i need to say this but i dun like to edit my BLOG...so if you saw any mistakes...pls dun bother about it...
|11:41 PM|
What happen today? Hmm...wokayz..this is what happen today....
I went to school early in the morning looking pretty tired...Reason...spend the nite before editing my template..Kewl huh? It makes me smile whenever i look at it. Better than the previous template...Sad template make me frown whenever i look at it..No wonder all my posts are all about sadness...Aiyoh....
As i was saying, i went to school to help out to promote the spmls to the freshies of SP. I din promote..I just ask them to fill up the form and poof! You are done...No qns asked...Stupid but I was tired to promote it..Sorry zaf, din do my work properly...I even have the nerve to take a short nap of 30 mins cuz i was super tired. Sorry zaf again..Din mean it but i was super tired..Hope you don't mind.
Then, I went to meet the guy who i want to meet. Settle the issues with myself...so NOT! I actually cried in front of him...But like he said, at least I am gaining a friend. Yeah, come to think of it, I should be thankful and not be sad. I am gaining a good friend...hopefully, all turns out well...I will not think of the future anymore cuz it alwayz turns out the opposite. I should just follow the flow...Haiz..Ryte mr...
Plans for tomorrow(today...if look at the clock)....
Jogging again for 15 mins around my area..I dunnoe how long i run but I clocked my runs..so i think shud be the same..I shud get my stamina...run half my area and i was panting...must be strong...fuh!! Then got another meeting with nurhayat at 2pm..must be the meeting bout the Camp Edition which i dunnoe whether im involved or not..if i am..i want to get PUBLISITI...if haddad see this...pls put me on the same post...Printing side pls...Thank You!!!!
|12:05 AM|
4/20/2005
Aisey...today i had the most unboring day ever...I learn how to control the spotlight to be used for fiesta femina..the show is great! Unfortunately itz for ladies only..come join us on the 30th April yeah!!!! 8 bucks only...juz come down to the SP Auditorium...Tix will b sold on that day itself...
So left with two days and I still need to heal my heart before meeting this guy..Hopefully, i settle the issues inside of me by then..Wish me luck yeah..Been doing a lot of thinking and walking around my area..Oh, yeah..Im goin jogging tomorrow as part of the therapy to deal with this issues..This is a recommendation from my best fren....JEREMY!!! Ahakz...Ryte jem!
Haiz...my student din came today...I just scold her for a day and there she is not coming..She will come,not today but another day. Damn! Shez havin her Mid-Year SOON...Isnt she excited to study like I am?? Shez weak and I cant possibly let her study last minute like me. Can somebody help me on how to teach for tuition more fun and lively? I have tried my best and I found out that shez good with pictures and not theory..Shez a visualiser..A person who remembers by looking at pictures..How i wish i could make maths and english fun for her...Gave her competition with her brothers to give some form of motivation...it doesnt seem to work. In fact, it gave her to be more low-self esteem..Cuz she alwayz loses out to her brother. Now, im trying a new method by using pictures or drawings to teach her maths.. For english, i still cant find a way...Help me please..somebody..
|10:05 PM|
4/19/2005
Haiz....itz been quite some time...My schedule has changed a little bit due to some unforseen events. So this is the schedule that happens for the past 3 days....
Saturday: It went as planned...
Sunday: Piano class as usual...den there was no tuition..den accompany my fren to buy her contact lens...
Monday: went to school to discuss fyp with my group mates, watch a dvd with them in the library and went to fiesta femina practice....
This is the schedule happening from now till sunday..insya'allah it will go to plan yeah...
Tuesday: Hmm...go my frens house and chill out and den go madrasah...
Wednesday: Full dress rehearsals as planned and hopefuly, my student will come to tuition...
Thursday: perhapz a movie marathon again...got nuthin on plan..my frens still have not confirmed with yet bout the trip to dunearn sec...
Friday: Help out with the SPMLS booth to promote our club to the freshies and hopefully they be interested to come to our camp...then..if i have settle with my problems, i may just meet up with this guy...
Saturday: No plans yet...to be updated in the next blog
Sunday: Piano class as usual...
Hmm..itz such a boring week and How i wish i could go back to school or better still work somewhere...cant wait for school to start....
|12:17 PM|
4/16/2005
I hate this computer...the last time..i had to save a copy of the post...The com had to restart and restart for dunnoe how many times. As i was saying for that freaking post was I had a boring week...wokayz not that boring..but considered as boring...my schedule...
Monday: Evening paper and celebrated the day with eating out at Lau Pa Sat
Tuesday: Went DVD marathon for the whole day
Wednesday: Continue with the DVD marathon for the whole day
Thursday: DVD marathon for half a day and went to TOUR around Bukit Panjang...from Segar LRT- Bangkit LRT- Bukit Panjang LRT- Segar LRT...walking...not taking the LRT...
Friday: DVD marathon for half a day and went to Bugis and Suntec before heading home...
So Im had a dvd marathon after my freakingly EXAMS!!!! Wokayz plans for this coming week...
Saturday: DVD marathon for half a day and go to Saff Meeting for the youth day activity at Bukit Panjang CC under West Zone Masjid Cluster...
Sunday: Piano class and dvd marathon and tuition
Monday: Set up notice board at Masjid Al-Iman
Tuesday: Accompany my fren to do contact lens and go for madrasah
Wednesday: Go for the full dress rehearsals in SP Auditorium
Thursday: Go back dunearn with my dunearn mates
Friday: Still thinking...perhapz another dvd marathon...
Whoo Hoo!!!!!!!!! A great Week ahead of me!!
|12:41 AM|
4/12/2005
Haiz....sorry peepz...I dun think i wanna post anything on love anymore...Itz never ending...Its juz SO simple yet we HUMANS make it so complicated. Its just simple like 1+1 = 2...But because we dun see the answer..we just keep thinking about it..Love is a feeling of joy and sense of security. Once u have that, you will be the most happiest person around. But Love comes with tests to see if you can withstand it. If it happens that you cant take the pressure, it just leave you just like that. Thats love. If it happens that the third party has an upper hand, it just leaves you. It leaves you in a web or maze. You have to figure out the way out yourself. How you gonna handle the pain of love? They will not tell you. They just want you to find it. It just so happens that everytime you are in love, they make sure that its different with different person. Reason, different person have different taste and different personality. NO TWO PERSONS ARE THE SAME! I REPEAT...YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE! Believe in that, and you will just be a happier person. Never,EVER try to change what you believe in coz once itz gonna help you in the long run. Once you change it, Oh...You just changed yourself. Thatz love. It tests your faith and believe. It tests everything in yourself. It also wants you to have the best yet you must be yourself. Love is nothing but the greatest. It feels the empty space when actually, theres not an empty space. WE HUMANS CREATED THE EMPTY SPACE. Yes, you feel actually you are whole again once you are in love. But if it leaves you, does that mean itz empty yet again? No, IT DOES NOT! The pain is painful, i agree but does that mean we have to find another guy to heal it or time to heal it? NO, IT DOES NOT! Its up to us whether we want to heal it or not. We have to deal with the pain ourself. No time and person can heal it for us. Its up to us. If we just take the time to learn from the pain and the mistakes in the relationship, i assure you the next relationship will be a better one. Look at how many people after failing each time and learn from it has succeeded? Therez more than meets the eye. You just need to find out what mistake youve done and never to do it again. Thats all. Thatz why I said Love is simple. Actually, this love that im talking about is the love between two strangers who are in a relationship. Did you know that Love is more than that? Therez friendship love, Motherly love, Fatherly love and etc. So Love is never ending. Its actually everywhere around us.
|2:18 PM|
Yeah!!!! Exams is finally over!!! Yeah!!YEAY!!!!! WHOOHOO!!! In the midst of my exams, i receive a lot of bad news....but i managed it by forcing myself to draw a line between personal and studies or like i said...all will be DONKEYs...today was the worst bad news ever but you guyz will know it sooner what it is cuz it wont be long that i will tell you what it is...for now...figure out yeah.....haiz....i have come to face reality...that is to face the music for whatever happen......haiz....................facing up to reality which hurts....:'( boo hoo hoo....sobs...sobs..sobs.......when will there be good news in this world???????
|12:29 AM|
4/04/2005
Haiz.i hate this day the most...take note yeah...from early in the morning till now..(12.15pm)..
Early in the morning..did my usual stuff, pray and bathe and all sorts..den took a little nap..woke up late. My bag still have not packed cuz i thought i could packed it later..so i was in a rush..on my way to school..felt weird at Choa Chu Kang MRT...guess what!? I forgot to bring CALCULATOR to school...shucks! So I tried to calm myself down..thatz not all....
Then, when i reached school, it was about time to enter the examination room..I was shocked that whatever i learnt the whole of yesterday was suddenly went blank. Tried my best to calm myself yet nothing came out of my mind...:'( DAMN! I tried to visualise whatever happen yesterday while doing the tutorial..yet nothing came out so i just write whatever i know..i hope itz gonna be correct. I dare not look into my tutorials for fear all is wrong...haiz...if only somebody could help me back there...
Finished paper..guess what the heck happen to me..My bottle which I had absent-mindedly put inside my bag had spilled. Half of the water spilled into my jeans. The weather as you all might have guess was SUPER COLD! Guess how cold am I!!! Haiz...my lecture pad was drenched in water and so i cannot possibly write on the paper...Haiz..
The day started off bad..i wonder if it would get any better...Help me!!!! :'( i have a feeling itz not gonna be any better...so wait for my next blog to see if it gets better or worse..perhapz i wont even blog about it at all..Peepz...juz assumed i had a bad day throughout this day yeah! :'( boo hoo hoo....
|12:15 PM|
4/02/2005
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|5:12 PM|