Haiz...counting the days now...tomorrow will be the last day i shall talk about him. I hope it will be serious this time...u peepz will sure say....'like real only diz girl' yeah..i will try my bery, very, utmost best not to talk bout this lost love. Itz really goin to end soon...This month, remember...Itz the most depressing moment of my life. Itz the month where this girl is facing a break up of a guy she thought would be her husband who would stay with her till the end of her life on earth. Finally, i found one weakness...I am WEAK in LOVE! I cant take any pressure of FALLING in LOVE...A friend of mine, more like loads of friends been telling me nothing is forever in this world. Is it true peepz?? Iz it? I just don't know why I just LOVE this GUY so much when in the beginning, I thought I would just pretend to love him..got that PRETEND. Now, I AM REALLY LOVING HIM!!! Yes, as time goes by, i cant help but FALLING for HIM...What's so special about him!? WHAT!? that I CAN HARDLY LET GO OF HIM!!! Is it his sense of surprises? Keep giving me surprises...Is it the way How HE AMAZES me everytime he talk to me? Is it the way he talks? SO CHARMING AND ROMANTIC VOICE...when he whispers, I would just be transported into another portal where only me and him together. WHAT!!! Haiz....F...I love you and I really, REALLY dont know how to let you go....
|3:00 PM|
Your element is Water: Understanding, intelligent,
quiet and calm. You know who you are and no one
can change that. Usually quiet but only because
your listening, don't let anyone think you
haven't got an opinion! Your not quiet because
your shy or sad, your usually quiet because
your thinking. Your answers are well planned
and helpful so people generally seek your
advice. Your the perfect balance between
solitary and outgoing. But sometimes you need a
little time to yourself to sort out your
emotions and figure things out. You understand
the phrase 'sticks and stone' and rarely let
things get to you, whats that important for you
to have to get so upset over? You know what you
want out of life but are simply taking your
time and enjoying things. To you your life is
fine as it is, you can always change things
later if your not happy.
.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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|10:56 PM|
Love the girl in your heart, not in your mind. If you base your relationship on feelings, it will fail for there are ups & downs in feelings. Girls are there to be loved, not toyed around.Love her for who she is. Don't even think about changing any bit about her. 6 billion people in this world & 6 billion different personalities. She's special & she will stay that way. You change any part of her, you'll change her forever. Don't substitute her for anyone else, they are just unique in their own ways.Love whole-heartedly. She sacrificed a lot for you so you'd better really treassure her. She could have just got up & date a so much more dashing guy in town but she chose you instead all because of love. So love her guys, not play with her.Don't just get the girl to beg you to stay or whatsoever. If you're with her, love her. Don't cause a strain in the relationship, you'll end up loving each other out of pity or charity, that's not respecting love at all. Respect love the way it is & everything will be the best it can be. I've been there & I know how it feels. Don't expect perfection from her. She's the only one in the world & she's done the best she could.Like another girl while you're in a relationship?Then I think it's time you remain single for a while. Don't go around breaking girls' hearts, it's the most tragic thing to do. Tell the truth, never hide anything from her. If you want her to tell you everything, do the same. Don't go calling other girls "honey" or "darling", how would it feel if your girl calls other guys the same way? Be faithful, enough is enough.Socialise only when you're single. You socialise & flirt around is to get the girl of your dreams. Get it over when she's already yours, don't ask for more.It never kills to be romantic. Think, be flexible.Getting that diamond ring isn't the only gift for her. Be realistic, she's human & she lives life just like you. Something sweet & simple always get the job done. Money doesn't exist between couples, it's the love. Never promise her that you'll love her forever because your forever might end the next day.Love her as if each day is the last. Sweet talking only applies for singles, not for attached guys. Do that & you'll really break your girl's heart.It isn't good being too well-known too, it'll give her a sense of insecurity. Remember, INSECURITY. Promise her & make sure you never break the promise. Swear to her & make sure you live up to your word. Pledge your love to her & her alone. Loving her is giving her your heart to break it but trusting her not to. Same goes for her,giving u her heart means allowing u to break it and trusting u not to. Instead, she'll cherish it & protect it. Should'nt you do the same thing as well? That's love. Give her your heart, your life, your everything. Lay down your life & prepare to die for her when the need arises. But stay strong & live through another day, she can never live without you. Never, ever walk out of her life. She won't just cry her heart out & carry on living as per normal, she'd die. Its her heart that you've broken, how would you ever know how she feels? Winning a girl's heart isn't the final victory. Don't leave her once you've won her love. Love her all the way till the end of time, love her till marriage, love her till old age, love her till death. If you can love her till the end of time, you've earned the honor & respect for you've truly loved her. She chose you because she believes that you can fulfil your promise. Win her heart & love her over. Remember, the girl isn't a trophy for display, she's someone to love, not to show off to your "friends
|10:27 AM|
My future looks bleak now..I have no dream to carry on my life anymore..if therez anyone out there to help, please come forward. I really,really, really miss him.. but as he said, respect the fact that we are still friends...yes, now, how he do it? I dont know...Why am I still holding on to him? WHY?WHY???? Today, at bbq, i tried to forget him, when my frens asked we tot u attached? Then, i had to think of my memories back with him. Every minute, every second of my day was wasted by thinking of him. When will i ever stop?! WHEN?! Is this love? I only realised the meaning of love only when itz lost. Haiz........itz all my FAULT! ITZ ALL MY FAULT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I shouldnt have called him the day i lost my phone! I SHOULDNT!!! Face the fact! Face the truth! HE WAS NEVER MINE IN THE FIRST PLACE! Why must i hover thoughts of him being my husband? Now, i have to live with it! LIVE WITH IT! Haiz.....F..., please, I am sorry but I cant do it! I just cant! Do whatever you want with me...Im already dead! I think you can do it...you already said before, you nearly let me go but because i keep disturbing you, you cant do it...I am sorry. I really am....I love you...for now and forever but itz fated that you cant be mine..I really dont know if i hold on to you again, will you come back? I doubt so, u told me that you will listen to your mum this once. Yeah, marriage without the parents consent is just like marriage without the god's consent as there will be a lot of obstacles coming your way...HAIZ....sorry peepz, my busy schedule haven been started yet..so i still have tots about him...lucky for me, he dont know my blog yet...does he? but i doubt so...so i can say whatever i want about me crying over him everyday without him knowing...so if u peepz dun want to know, than, dun bother reading till im happy, ill post my blog add in the msn. for now, itz only those little peepz who bothers reading my sad,sad story in love.......I LOVE HIM! I LOVE HIM!!!!!
|12:22 AM|
Sorry, Sorry peepz again...Too many peepz been telling me that i seem so dead today, the way i talk like dead...but like my nick in msn, im like a zombie waiting to be killed...so tatz how i am ar..And yeah, cant wait to be SICK! And ryte now, im havin a headache, fever..hope tmrw im getting beta..cuz i got a bbq and i hav to bring my fired mee hoon to my class chalet gathering..this is all my pondering of my pathetic love life...so sad..even now, im still crying...dunnoe when i will stop...so i created this time table for my time.....wanna see it?
Monday: School till 5pm...then softball...5.30-7.30pm..reached home 8pm...
Tuesday: School break b4 chinese class go gym frm 3-5pm...chinese class..5.30-7.30..reached home 8pm...
Wednesday: School till 3pm...then go home..teach tuition till 8pm..
Thursday: School till 5pm..then go home...too tired to think of anything...
Friday: School till 4pm...go esplanade or gym...
Saturday: No school but i apply for this arab class every saturday..2-4pm..then teach tuition at nite
Sunday:No school..but i got piano class frm 2-3.30pm..then teach tuition at nite...
So peepz...i make it so much so i have no time for myself to think of anything... better that way ryte? than this blog wont be filled with me pouring out my sadness like a crying baby when i still have him as my fren rather than losing him forever...i tink im gonna do something for thursday....I know...add one more..driving lesson...yeah! That would do it! Best ryte!!!! No worries now peepz! No longer bout him..if tatz wat u want! Yeah!
|10:21 PM|
Today...I cried a lot...lunch time, i cried...on my way home, i cried...now, im crying...why!? Cuz I keep thinking of my pathetic love life that I am leading right now. Haiz...today, 1st time in history, I ONLY eat biscuits and raisins that i bought at FC1...I have practically no mood to eat. Even that, there was no taste. Itz as if my taste buds hav lost its tastes. Haiz...watz wrong with me..Then, I keep on poking this safety pin on my fingernails but weird, i wanted it to bleed but it din. So i keep on trying and trying now. Then, I keep thinking of my past with my ex...everything nice about it...Come to think of it, the only BIG fight that we had was 3 days after my birthday. Tatz the only fight. The rest!? I dont think we ever had any...Gosh, why?! WHY?! You guyz tell me, how to let go of this nice, perfect boyfriend that i had. The relationship that we shared for the past 7 mths and 12 dayz? TELL ME! juz tag...haiz..why must i let go? why? Haiz, yes, i may have promised to keep shut this mouth of mine to talk bout this guy since itz over between us. Yes, i tried. Dont worry, studies still remain my priority...most of the papers i got back, i passed...but the other papers im so not sure..studies will be my priority! Love would come if I let this love go. If i dont let this love go, im depriving myself of another love story. But what the heck, I will let it go once i feel like it. Haiz......:'( I will only let another guy enter if i want to open the story. haiz...:'( I cant carry on anymore..sorry peepz...cant take the pressure...
|10:18 PM|
Haiz...What a day I had today..I wonder if i keep on looking like a zombie..what would peepz say...I feel like a zombie today..esp after talking to him on the phone..Suddenly, i feel the reality really hurts! Yesh boy, I am letting you go..So feel happy about it! Feel very satisfied with the voice tat made me go back to reality! Yesh boy, we are going to be just friends but I shall try my best not to disturb you anymore since I am such a desperado who is seaching for your love which I practically am. But i think If i juz sit down and wait...like they say, we are created in pairs..we juz have to find the other half and i dun want to find it. Let it come to me. I am on the verge of waking up from my sleep..which apparently, keeps turning into nightmare everytime. Just like yesterdae..weird, why am i crying now when im supposed to cry yesterday? Why am I so stupid looking back? I have miscalculated a lot of things. I have done a mess out my life. I created a hole in my heart without knowing. Yesh boy, tat hole was the love tat i lost. You are my memory as a boyfriend whom i hope to be my future husband but it din happen. You are the one that i want but fate says you cant be mine. I gave my heart away to you and you said i was guilty of taking your heart away from you. More like, u shoud be guilty! Cuz, I feel numb. wherez my heart to feel pain? I am hurt now. Tat why i ask u to tell me what am i supposed to feel. Now then i know, im supposed to feel like this....heartbroken, shacked, no concentration to do work, slacked, zombie, and all to do with pain. Yesh boy, Im feeling pain now! R u happy now? R u happy now that i finally found a reason to hate you. The reason I hate you is because I fell in love with you too hard for me to be friends and let go of you as my boyfriend. I have to take a lot and lots of courage to change this mentality of mine that you are no longer my boyfriend. Yes, yesterday, still in my dream. Today's LUNCH time, Reality! You made it! Your coldness to me juz now was excellent so much so it makes me think. Thanx to all my frens and peeps for helping get to this reality! A hurtful reality..Now, i wish im entering back to my dream where everything seems perfect in my eyes. Yesh boy, still trying hard to make u my friend...if u read this, msg me or something. Yesh boy, waiting for you now..take care peepz..
|11:30 PM|
Berhenti Berharap by Sheila On 7
Aku tak percaya lagi
Dengan apa yang kau beri
Aku terdampar di sini
Tersudut menunggu mati
Aku tak percaya lagi
Akan guna matahari
Dengan mampu menerangi
Sudut gelap hati ini
Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat
Kenapa ada derita
Bila bahagia tercipta
Kenapa ada sang hitam
Bila putih menyenangkan...
Chorus:
Aku pulang...
Tanpa dendam
Kuterima.. kekalahanku
Aku pulang...
Tanpa dendam kusalutkan..kemenanganmu
Bridge:
Kau ajarkan aku bahagia
Kau ajarkan aku derita
Kau tunjukkan aku bahagia
Kau tunjukkan aku derita
Kau berikan aku bahagia
Kau berikan aku derita
Back to chorus**
Tegahkan tangguhmu
Lepaskan perlahan
Kau akan mengerti semua
Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang
Gelap sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat
|11:05 PM|
You gave of that
Which you had to give
We learned to laugh
We learned to live
In my Life
Whatever it might be
I’ll never forget
What you gave to me
|11:29 PM|
Yeah! I thought I would meet him tomorrow but, but it was today. Unexpected! Yes peepz, you guess it right again...I skipped my chinese class since i dun think many peepz would come. Haiz...the beginning was fun but...but as the date ended i knew the worst is about to come but i dun want to face it! I DONT WANT TO FACE IT! I DONT! But what the heck, it still happens...ending it on a good note. Yeah, it was...miss him even more now..bodoh eh pompuan nie..haiz...shudnt hav met him...but i want to meet him and relive all those sweeeeeeet moments..haiz i miss everything bout him...the ending..finally, i let all my hearts out! and was i satisfied? I wasnt..i dare not look into his eyes...dare not..DARE NOT...he noticed, keep blocking my view when he wants to make a point. One thing for sure, i have yet to see him angry! How angry can he get? I also dont know and I wont know! Reason, we broke up after 7 mths and 12 dayz..itz been nearly 2 months since i last met him..Why oh WHY! Ryte peepz, dun worry, my dream has ended here now and for all..perhapz..perhapz i will snap back soon but NOT SO soon! Itz easier said than done! Yeah, i compared myself again with his ex..come to think of it, all his ex's were fortunate excluding me. Haiz...never mind, i shall try my bery best to be his friend. Good friend perhapz? I dunnoe...itz gonna take a lot of courage and will to do it after being his girlfriend. Juz like the song One last...yeah, tatz wat happen juz now..we were in denial of our relationship...i feel so bad...send your condolences to the love that i had peepz..haiz..i wonder if i ever live life as the sharifah everyone know...perhapz even better? We shall wait and see...
|11:26 PM|
OMG!OMG!!! I am so HAPPY today!!! Yes! Itz valentines day and im spending it single but I talked to him for more than 1 time! 1st tyme in history after the D-day....I so missed him!! Im waiting for WEDNESDAY to come!!! Im meeting him for the last tyme :( as a couple :) Can u imagine that? I repeat AS A COUPLE!! OMG!! I cant believe this! But itz for the last tyme :'( So Sad! I AM STILL IN LOVE WITH HIM! Wat a day! Yeah2, i know peepz...This girl is crazier by the minute..Crazy in love which was never meant to be hers in the 1st place! Haiz!! I love him! I dont care wat u peepz say, it will take me like one year or when he found someone new before i finally move on! But i dunnoe...regardless of which, Hez the one in my heart ryte now...and i hope it will remain there till the last gasp of breath i had...I love him, my first true love and this day, i will remember when he still called me Sayang...gosh!GOSH!!!! But...look at the lyrics of this song, One Last by Taufik(SG idol)
I never could imagine,
life without you
From the moment you walked into my world
Never knew how long a loving flame could burn
But losing you has forced me to learn
That we can’t change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it’s better if we just let it go
So let’s have
Chorus
One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there’s nothing wrong
Let’s stay here for a while and
Cherish every moment we’re in denial
We both know
It’s better if we just let it go
Every time I try to take a stand at all
I see your face again and
I fallIn the middle of the night there’s the scent of a rose
The smell of your perfume I suppose
But we can’t change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it’s better if we just let it go
So let’s have
Chorus
Baby if we met each other under a different sky
Maybe then things would be much better between you and I
We could always hold on to this one special thing we share
But it would be too much for us to hear
So let’s have
Chorus
We both know
It’s better if we just let it go
Yupz, therez the lyric and itz all about me and him! We just have to let it go! I miss him! I love him! But to save us/ourselves, we have to let go! We are both selfish peepz...we treasure our family more than our love! Love is second hand but family is not! We may choose who our family is but LOVE? Can we choose? The answer is NO! We cant! God choose who our parents is and not us. So do you consider that as selfish? I guess u r not! U juz have to understand why I cant let go of him..this song..itz why..so peepz, keep trying yeah! Take care! Happy V-day to u peepz!
|11:38 PM|
In the hopes of seeing him online, finally saw him online...his nick, seems so sad yet torturous for me to bear...I feel tortured inside. I have to act tough in front of him yet inside of me, I feel so tortured bearing the pain inside. I love him but like I said...fate dun want us to be together..Wokayz...yesterday i went around malaysia to shop and visiting my uncles and aunties..Like Hari Raya lakz..Thiz is because my sister is going to sabah and this visiting is for her to ask for forgiveness and last visit since she wont be coming back to Johore diz cuming hari raya..Haiz..itz sad but so...true. I might be spending my hari raya in sabah since my sister's there. Haiz....speaking of which..i still remembered of going hari raya with him. but now, itz juz a dream which will never come true..Boring yeah, keep speaking of a lost love never to be mine...sorry guyz..soon, when im back to reality, i will try not to talk about him anymore..Yeah..I know you peepz are kind hearted peepz. Got to go now...since i got nuthin to say..ciaoz peepz!
|2:25 PM|
Ahahahaha! Something very funny happen but as my nephew wants it to be kept a secret, i cant tell what happens! Finally, Im back at home! Home sweet home!!! I still miss him though but i dunnoe..after reading his testimonials..i dunnoe..i juz lurve to look at his profile at friendster and let my brains run wild! Guess again! Yeah, my brain did run wild! i dunnoe...haiz..i guess hez found sum1 new? WO! I shudnt have said tat about him. Hez the best guy, the best bf i ever had, the best lover i ever had and i cant stop thinking bout him though hez not mine...Let it be my memory..haiz..i love him to bitz and pieces but fate dun want us to be together..haiz..never mind, soon, mayb soon...i may juz snap back to reality, when he finally find sumone new i guess? i dunnoe..Hola...come on sharifah, you can do it! you can do it! As u peepz say, MOVE ON! Ryte peepz! soon when i finally am back on track..to those of u who sees me as moody or sad face, itz because im still in my dream/nightmare refusing to move to reality...my hearts has been poured to another blog...itz up to me whether i want to b in reality or b in a dream which will only hurts me more..cuz if i dun want, nobody can make me do it...also by u guyz ryte? Soon, i will be happy, dun worry peepz! Soon..but NOT SO soon! Juz count the dayz...it may take me dunnoe how many years juz to let this childhood crush of mine be a part of my memory and not lost in the netherlands.....
|1:35 AM|
Hihi!!! Im in kuala lumpur/ Putrajaya Peepz..Im at my sis's house doing my blog. I bought myself a new sandal in conjuction with the spoilt shoe i had while walking from Orchard to Esplanade the other day. Haiz...so whatz so new about me in kuala lumpur..this will be my last time here..and gez what, i found some lost number in my old phone..incldg the best fren of my ex, a number i wish to contact. so i need not ask from him anymore..haiz..i miss him....i miss him so much...this is the dream that i want to snap out from...Itz over between us yet i still miss him so much...everyone keep reminding me, itz over..get over it...u cant be together already..and all others..but i still miss him! I want him back..plz come back...please..haiz...b happy now! Wokayz, soon im havin a spilt personality..where one is a happy one, while the other a sad one..wokayz, peepz gez tatz all i want to say..and i still miss him..to all who want me to snap out of it, try harder cuz tatz one of my agenda to snap back to reality and not in my dream...
|5:03 PM|
|10:10 PM|
Hmm...today is the start of my skewl holidayz..therez so much things happening from 2.00pm all the way to 6.30pm....Man...here goes my story...
At 2.00pm
I receive a message from the man whom i wanted to hear from most! Fuh, lucky it wasnt tomorrow..man, after which, he called me..I missed his voice so much tat its sad that we hav to put down the phone after 45mins? around there ar...he never fails to amazed me..i still love him and will alwayz be though we are no longer together..i really wish we are together ya noe but as the fate says, we cant be together...haiz..so sad..Itz all my fault...if only i keep my mouth shut! then diz will not happen...i missed him! if only i din go to town today, i could have met him..since he asked me out as he is havin an unexpected half day break..if he had told me earlier..den i wont have planned goin out with fida..but i still had fun..since talking to him is one of the things tat made my day today..again..i shant mention diz guy's name cuz i think ya noe who im talking about...itz the guy who never failz to amazed me everytime..wonder what hez doing now...
At 2.30pm
Hmm...i met fida..still talkin to him till he reached choa chu kang then he wanted to put down the phone due to some reasons..hmm..wokayz, ryte, i went to meet fida at Orchard mrt station and we walk to Far East Plaza to shop for my shoe coz i dun have any nice feminine shoe to wear..the shoe that i bought cost me $29.90..quite ex but itz worth it..then, fida had a GREAT idea of walking to Esplanade from Far East Plaza..and guess what, we did walk there from Far East Plaza...it took us around 1hour plus to get to esplanade..lucky we din get lost..There was stops in between though...
1st stop: My slippers suddenly ter-putus...Lucky i bought the shoe already..den i wear the shoe ar...if not, i dunnoe what will happen..Haiz..so sad..Slippers, slippers...shall not wear cheap-skate slippers to orchard..simply said, dun wear slippers if you are going to walk a lot...
2nd stop: Plaza Singapura to buy drinks as i was so thirsty walking from Far East to Plaza Singapura..wokayz, before that we stop at Old Chang Kee to buy food..tat explains my dry throat...
3rd stop: This Fashion..Since im so loh-soh, fida match-make for me clothes i shud wear to skewl..she got good taste and i have to trust even if i dun like it..she chose for me a brown skirt and this black and white t-shirt..nice2..2 bad, i never save tat picture ar..haiz..itz nice and all..but as i dun like to wear skirt tat much, i dun think i will wear them..2 bad to all peepz who wish to see me wearing skirt everyday..unless i got no more clothes to wear then, ill wear the skirt.
At 4.oo++pm...
At esplanade, we went to the library to check the music scores for us to play..she play the guitar and i play the piano..nice songs they have there...i photocopied one song, When you believe and borrowed 2 books for me and 2 books for fida..and we are goin to exchange the books when the skewl reopens on valentine's day..hmm..den we went to the tower..gosh, how it changed..it brings back memories though it has changed to a garden(doesnt seem to me) and we stand at the spot where my ex sound me to be his girl...den from there till 6pm..i kept thinking of my sweeeeeeeeeeet memories with him..since after that, we went to look over the sea. There was this gig going on that evening i supposed cuz they are testing the sound and rehearsing the songs they will be playing. Wow! The songs are so emo..but it was nice since the songs give more reason for me to think of memories with him..me and fida was talking bout love and how love is complicated and all..aisey..when actually, love is simple and easy..haiz..Love? What is love? Can someone enlightened me a bit?
At 6.30
Itz the time i went home!!! Ahakz...
|9:50 PM|
Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Finally, the mid-semestral test is OVER! for now only...the next exam..which is the end-of-semester exam...is the next killer papers...all with more than 50% of the whole grading scheme...so tat paper i muz really study hard cuz it either i get to my future option which is Quantity Surveying or not..reason being, it is much dependent on that results! So since i know i will flung one paper which is Building Maintainance Test..so i gez i beta buck up on that paper...tat paper is so easy to study yet so difficult to score..WHY!! But i know who turn to if i suddenly loss of courage to study..skali he dun want to talk to me..ahakz!...beta not..i shud b independent and not rely on others..soon, i will be..but for now, enjoy it while it lasts..haiz...i dun want to lose him yet i know sumhow i will lose him soon..when? i dunnoe..haiz...I shud be happy now that tomorrow ill be heading to kuala lumpur/putrajaya to pick my sis up for the last time...next stop..sabah..wonder wat it will b like staying there..haiz..i pity my sis..what to do..soon my 2 favourite nephews is gonna teach me all the sabah language..cant wait for that to happen..now, now...enjoy the peacefulness in putrajaya...chill out!
|3:50 PM|
Haiz...one more paper to go now...Measurement of building works(MBW)....at least that paper got some numbers...Finally!! After 2 paper of theory...Hope I can do this paper juz like accounting papers...screw up one paper..dunnoe if i screw up my cpm anot..i dun think so..i think i can do the paper but sumtimes the results would turn it another way around...Haiz...Juz one more day to go and rest for a dae...and then wait for an unknown msg from a guy who said to wait..but i dunnoe..by then, im off to kl..for 4 daez? to pick my sis up frm putrajaya...lurve that place..but now...shez movin to Sabah..whoa laoz...so far...den i muz go there for my hari raya diz yr..haiz..but best ar..den can climb the Mt Kinabalu...wah sey..can train my muscles now to climb tat mountain in Asia...the tallest..ahakz..mcm real aja...eh..paper tmrw and what am i doing..Blogging instead of studying..Chey de bah..ahakz! gtg now..peace out and chilling in..
|10:35 PM|
Haiz...Im bored to death studying for CPM...man...help me man b4 i fall asleep again studying..this paper is another difficult paper..i hope i can do all the qns but at the rate im goin..read, sleep, read, sleep..can i pass??Gosh! Though therez a retest, i aint gonna do it again! Man, i beta buck up my courage and study for my this paper...juz 2 more papers to go...CPM and MBW...haiz..talk to him again during lunch..i dun even know why i keep calling him..He never fails to motivate me..even now,he ask me to concentrate on my studies for my test! Never regret calling him juz now..haiz..im never brave but juz needed a motivation booster and only he can do it..his words, his voice are my motivators! Tanx dude..shant mention his name..but i tink u guyz know who am i referring to..I will survive in this turmoil of life! Cant wait for thursday to come!
|2:35 PM|