12/31/2005
Wokayz, Today is the day I will forget the ultimate memories..Wokayz, maybe not totally! Just my worries about him turning into another person..This refers to all the guys that I know of...I mean, B and him changed into someone I never knew. One by reading his blog..the other I saw him with my own eyes. Gosh! Both of them are very dear to me. I dunnoe ar! All I know...I miss B, I mean the old him.
The new him? Gosh, is it because when we were attached, he have to be caring and now that we are going our own ways, he have to a little bit distant? All I know, I started it. I mean I was the one that talked to him like a bit distant. So ok, never mind, no point saying the reason now cuz itz like over. Gosh, Not another unfocus! FOCUS..darn.Wokayz...
As for him, I shall try and be NORMAL to him like I used to..Wokayz, had a talk with Fida today..I mean I went out and all the name that came out from my mouth was the crush's(D) name. Ooh...when u are super close to the person, u tend to have feelings for the person. I mean, I was with him practically everyday. I tried to curb this feelings but I just cant. But I told her that I just want D and me to be like this. No more or less cuz I dun want us to be distant like how me and B are now. Tat also includes to all guys whom I rejected just because I get a little too close that they think I like them. Gosh, Im such a dangerous girl..I just want D and me to be close friends for fear of things like going distant to a point of no talking. It can go to that extent. Look at the extent at me and E...It became the gossip of the girls in poly at one time as I rejected him. Never mind, it will never happen again, I hope...
Wokayz...enough of those tales..somebody is gonna be mad..At the most, it will become the talk of the town again...Now the trip to ORCHARD!!!
Yeah, I went to Eunos with Fida. Dun ask me, Shez gonna kill me if u guyz find out what we did there cuz itz supposed to be a secret..So itz gonna be a secret....After went to Eunos, we went to Orchard. Reached orchard around 6.30pm and went to Lido. We wanted to watch Ice Harvest but it only starts at 9.45pm..So that was outz..So decided to watch The Family Stone which starts at 7.10pm. The earliest after eating our dinner at BK. Gosh, we had fun all the way. Did you know that we laughed the WHOLE journey??? Gosh, I tink today,I talked a lot. I dunnoe why am I speaking in english to almost everyone. Not that itz not good but I think watching CH5 and listening to WKRZ, P10 everyday makes me talked in english..Just like in secondary skewl.
After the show, we went to Far East Plaza and did some window shopping and the clothes that both of us like costs a WHOPPING $69.90..SO EX!!!! Never mind, we are gonna get those once we are working or when the prices drop to $39.90 or less..I am supposed to be shopping today since its the winter season. Herez the time where all the LONG sleeve shirts are SUPERBLY nice, cute and pretty unlike in summer or spring where the LONG sleeve shirts are like the NYONYA kind...So hate it! The best time to shop for ms arab girl is in the month of November, December and January...The month of Autumn and Winter...Cuz itz the only time where all the nice long sleeve clothes can be FOUND!!!
I am super happy mood today! Throughout the whole day, I have been laughing with fida over small little things like, me being talkative, the Handsome cashier who serves us a big plastic bag and dunnoe bout what...Den when I was taking a ride home, I laughed again at this guy who din give me a seat when he din want to seat. Gosh, it passes thru all the passengers who sits next to the auntie of the empty seat..Hahaz! I dinnoe that laugh is CONTAGIOUS. I guess it is..LAUGH often PEEPZ...when you are down, you should LAUGH! Hahaz, I din..I cry when I was down..Cried so many nights to the point that I said this is gonna be the last I am gonna cry over such stuffs. But I think it wont be..the last...that im gonna cry over him...This happiness will be short lived..Dun worry..
Yeah, I am gonna be doing a new blog while this blog will not be collecting dust, it will collecting my tears as I am not gonna let all my pitfalls here! I will rename this blog when the clock strikes 12 am..I dunnoe bout the layout of the new blog yet..Perhapz, itz gonna be about greenery? I dunnoe..Later then decide..Hahaz!
|12:22 AM|
12/30/2005
Im so full of energy doin this fyp that I burn the midnite oil practically every nite! I am just so glad that the website is like 90% up!!!! There were glitches that I nearly give up on it..Thanx to Mr Hafiz Manan for believing in us!! Goodness, did I mention that he also nearly gave up?? Never mind, thru this project, we've been thru up and downs and getting a little closer..We became like SUPER close friends! Hope it lasts thru working life..I wonder..Both of them are using prepaid card..The only way to contact them is thru MSN? Thatz the net..I wonder how all of them will look like in future!
Today, since Im superbly excited bout the fyp, it gets even better after meeting Izar(hafiz's friend). WOW! Kewlness...we did a lot of effects with the website! Lurve the website! Of cuz it is, itz the fruit of HARD WORK! For the first time in my life, I think this is the best day of my life! I mean besides the day you know..last year 12th may..But itz now just a history...Wokayz, focus! Darn!
Wokayz, went out to Town with Ezahan, Hafiz and the gang. The weird thing is, I saw the guy whom I used to have a crush on smokes? I mean he told me that he din smoke like so many times before but why did he smoke??? Guess la who..no clues yeah...Only my poly mates know..Hahaz..Those were in year 1 yeah..I still cant believe my eyes!!!!! Is it really true or my eyes are playing tricks on me? Gosh, only god knows how painful the heart is to see him smokes. Haiz...I din talk to him like I used to for the first 5mins..I was shocked for words. I think it shows cuz Ez make a comment when we were in the restaurant. Never mind...its his life..I shant make any comment unless im the one special in his heart which I doubt so. His type of girls like most of the guys that I know of, all have VERY, SUPERBLY high taste..those model kind of look with or without make-up. As my looks are so the average looking, I know he wont even take a second look at me.He keepz reminding me though bout my looks..Hahaz..
I know deep in my heart, I am beautiful so why change? Like one of my juniors, Nyqa said in her msn nick last time..Keep your imperfections as they make who you are. Which is quite true. Wokayz, I may be getting vain these days but will I change totally? I doubt so, TRUST me, I will be who I am just that, I will try and think before I said anything. It stirred a lot of trouble recently and I so not gonna repeat that. So to all people out there...before the new year starts...
I AM SORRY IF MY WORDS CAUSED A LOT OF TROUBLE AND FLAMING UP IN THE BLOG!!!!
Yeah, that felt great...shouting to all the blog hoppers who tag in my blog especially to fudge. Hmm...Yeah, it felt great! But this hand and mouth cant stop itself, can it? If only I can control my heart and mind. Then, there will no trouble and all will be fine! Haiz... Whatever happen has happen. I shall treat it as a lesson learnt along the way to Adulthood! Hahaz, Im already supposed to be working at least a Part-time job by now! Hahaz!! Never mind, 13th March..Here I come!!!
Yeah, I cant believe that I will leave Singapore Polytechnic in 3 month's time? Can you believe that? Its so early!! Im supposed to leave SP in July NOT March the 3rd! Gosh! Never mind, evry school life has to end somehow... Itz up to us to upgrade ourselves to degree or perhaps more in the future..Will write a story of how I changed during the 2 n 1/2 years in poly..You will be surprised! From a born nerd to a girl who is superbly vain! If you were in poly, you will know why I became vain. People changed in poly, dude! They may deny but if you look close enough, there is some change. Just like I said earlier, people change once they leave secondary schools. Its really up to them, either for the better or for the worst. We decide our future. As for me, one grave mistake is enough. Sometimes I feel weird why all my plans with this someone doesnt seem to work out these days...Never mind, shant say it cuz I know deep in my heart, there must be a reason as to why.
Did I just write a long entry? Oh GOSH! I did!!! Yeah, to cover up for the past few days of not blogging. Expect this long entry by Sharifah Nurulhuda, the arab girl everytime!!
|1:11 AM|
12/27/2005
Wokayz, taking a break from doing FYP...Its the last stage of doing fyp. I decided to delete the previous post, if u guys notice. It wasnt even up for 24 hours. I deleted all the taggies to honour the new year. I hope no more taggies that may cause other people to FLAME up. I mean, GOSH, itz over already..or should I say, GAME OVER. Why talk about it when I already made my point. Nobody, NOBODY wants it to end this way! It just happens..
Wokayz,whatever it is..Please stop going over the past. Its now entering the future so I guess I have to focus. Focus is the word. I dont care anymore. If he have moved on, I believed I should move on..Never mind lor...I have a friend...more like my god brother who always come to me. Hez so loyal to his crush till today. How I wish I have that loyalty? But if therez no future coming out from the relationship, i guess, I really have to moved on. I shall be close to my gfs now. Relationship just brings me sorrowness when we've broken up. It was such a wonderful event. Did I mention that this year is my year of sorrowness? Man, I was saying about being 20 years old..When I was 19 years old, I was in a relationship and I felt happy and so over the moon! Now, never mind, I can always deny my feelings..Just how am I supposed to do it, you will know soon enough!
Wokayz...before the mates come in and kill me for blogging, i better log off now! Take Care now..Oh yeah, fudge, im sorry if u meant ur tag to be seen by my frens cuz I dun want to cause any flaming to go in my tagboard!Enough is enough already..Yeah?? Hope U really dun mind that...
|3:26 PM|
12/26/2005
Wokayz...Another sighting of GHOST....this time..I feel EERIE!!!!!
Gosh! I should have stayed longer at Lot 1 so that I wont reach home around Maghrib! All I know I saw the thing vanish just like that like 'kabus'..ok dunnoe the english word for 'kabus'. Gosh! All I did was open the door, read some doa like i usually do b4 entering and quickly close the door and watched tv, the princess diaries to forget this incident. Somehow, dunnoe why I can still remember how the thing vanish. I guess it followed me home..GOSH!!!! Gosh!!!
Pause for a moment as I pray to god that I wont be able to see this stuff again.
I mean, I am home alone!!!! Seeing these things make me dun wanna sleep at nite man!!!Id rather sleep in the morning than dream about it while I am sleeping at nite. I had nightmares when I was a kid and I dun want to repeat the nightmares again! Imagine....dreaming about these things trying to call you?? Gosh! I aint gonna remember that dream!! NEVER!!!
Gosh! Another pause as I am praying for my safety....
Gosh! Ok, this time I am feeling a little bit scared!! Nopez! Really scared!!!!! Please pray that I wont see this stuff again! Act aja kewl but when u r alone at home like me at this night, I dun think u will like it...
Yeah, the reason why I went to lot 1 is because I asked my FYP mates to eat dinner with me after doing FYP together. Had fun! Cant wait till the end where we will celebrate the end of FYP suffering!!!!
|1:00 AM|
12/24/2005
Itz christmas Eve...But I dunnoe...Everytime itz xmas eve, i felt nothing but just Lonelines...Gosh, this year? Itz gonna be even worst...Ill be spending the eve at home alone. Sounds kinda fun to all u peepz who prefer staying at home alone. To me, itz BORING!
How I really wish I could go out or something..but I dun have anyone with me to go out. To go party? Thats like so NOT me...Haiz..Whoever who reads this and knows my number, please call me yeah..At least therez that someone willing to chat with me this x'mas eve...
I just wish for one thing to happen...that time will turn back and that whatever happen a year back, wont happen. Its been a year...Yeah..I could still remember the day. And yeah, today marks the first year of my Nokia 6610i...Gosh, the year passes us by quickly.
Yet again, I still miss the guy whom all people in my blog known as B...But I dunnoe, I feel as if we are drifting apart. Is it just me or is he feeling the same? I mean, the feelings is no longer the same. I really,really wish it does feel the same but the passion is just not there. Gosh! B, if u are reading this, please tell me that it is not only me who felt that we are drifting apart. I guess since the day you told me that you have found someone new? Or is it since we din make a contact for a whole month?Or is it since the mst when u din make any calls? Argh!!!!!!!!! I wish this break up doesnt happen then I wont be asking why am i feeling like we are drifting apart?? Its just not the same anymore...Period. Haiz...is it really time for me to really accept reality? Haiz...I just want everything to be what it used to be a year back but I know its as good as a dream never coming true...Its just IMPOSSIBLE..Period.
Haiz, wokayz, thatz my second wish of the day. But I know, itz just not gonna be the same anymore. Could I find that person who is similar to B? I already made up my mind..The next one whoz gonna be my boyfriend have to be working like me. Of cuz im going to look for someone when I am already working.Yeah, I hope that boyfriend is gonna be my husband. I dun care. If I cant get my first love to be my husband, I'll make sure the second one will be my husband. I will give all the care and concern to him. Still, itz what the muslims called, takdir yang akan menentukannya. Kita hanya mampu merancang tetapi tuhan yang menentukannya. All again, it comes to fate. Fate din allow me to be with B...
Theres so much tv shows this weekend, YET, I feel nothing but just Emptiness! WHY?! WHY?! Does everything happen for a reason?? To me, it does..Its just that you need to find the reason behind everything. So, to u peepz out there,call me if u have my number..I will be waiting patiently..who knows..suddenly, santa claus might keep me company tonight! Hahaz..like therez a santa in this world..Hahaz! :)
|6:08 PM|
12/21/2005
Finally, I have a story to tell to you peepz after so long!!!It is....I SAW A GHOST???? Did I really saw the ghost??? I mean, it was a ghost?? Right?? Ok, herez the story before you guys start screaming and say,' APA LA BUDAK NIE, BALIK2, GHOST2 AJA, CITE DIA MANA?!'
Today, as usual, my fyp mates will do our project at the Multimedia lab. I was so engrossed doing when suddenly, the notice board in front of me became very blurry. I was shocked of course. Then, as I was looking closely, it felt like a person in white clothes walking in front of me! How shocked will you get if you were me!??!??!?!?! I just stared at the white clothes to see where it was going when suddenly,
'oi! sharifah, ko tgk orang jalan eh? ko takut eh?'
Who else but Hafiz said that. Of course I deny I was scared la! In front of him? Man, I was scared but I fulfilled one of my wishes that is to meet those kind one day. This is like the first man!!!! I wish I could experience it once again. I tot I would get those kind of eerie feeling but no, I was stunned by words. Hafiz saw the thing as well as I did. I wonder if Yusoff saw what we saw. Fuh! What a day! And that's like the place where we will do our fyp again and again!! I want to see that thing again, but will it happen? Only time will tell!
Wokayz, hmm, these few days have been fun as I am getting super close with Hafiz. I mean he helped motivate me to do those running(i jog) for Napha test coming up in 11th January 2006. Will I make it? Only with the help of Hafiz and erm..Faeiz(will u help me)?
I cant wait to finish this fyp and get lost from the eerie room. I mean that was the first and i hope it WONT b the last, I will be seeing the thing. I mean, I wish I could feel what I felt when watching EERIE movies!!!! But it din happen, I was just stunned. People, tell me bout ur ghost stories and how u felt about it. Cuz I think, if u felt like me, then these ppl who make it sounds EERIE are just LYING about it! Darn!
Ok, tatz it from me!!! Ciaoz peepz!!!
|8:29 PM|
12/18/2005
How You Life Your Life
You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.
Your Birthdate: June 24
You understand people well and are a natural born therapist.
A peacemaker, people always seem to get along when you are around.
You tend to be a father or mother figure to friends, even to those older than you.
You enjoy your role, and you find that you are close to many people.
Your strength: Your devotion
Your weakness: Reliance on others for happiness
Your power color: Lilac
Your power symbol: Heart
Your power month: June
Blue/Green
Which colour do you represent?
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